Stick Foot in Mouth...and Keep It There

Questions:...
1) Why could I not just leave well enough alone?
2) Was I really ready to hear the truth?

In fact I couldn't leave "well enough alone". I could not take the not knowing, and all that junk. And yes I probably was ready to hear the truth, but did I want the truth. Knowing something and suspecting something are two completely different things. I should be grateful for what I have left, but I can't help but feel embarrassed because I was such an idiot...Life sucks when you lose a love.